Stones and walls

"Only a fool trips on what's behind him."

The past is over and we should move on is what I get out of this statement. But should nothing in the past be tripped over now and then? If you look back and try to understand it so you can grow, is that tripping? I see how people say your not supposed to build barriers to protect yourself, but isn't it also stupid not too? Since I don't have all day to ponder this, I say trip over what's behind you now and then. Learn from it and grow. Then move on and try to avoid the big stones. Learn to be happy and love again but a small wall never hurt anyone. People should have walls and boundaries to let only those who are worthy in.

What to do?

I was thinking about making a blog elsewhere so I can write what I want and know that people aren't reading everything I write and hating my guts. It's too big of a pain since there are shockingly no blog apps to choose from besides this one. So I guess now my choice is write what I want and be hated, or give up in the idea of blogging. Obviously I brought this problem on myself by being who I am. One can't have as many enemies as I and not realize where the problem lies. I'm a difficult person to live with or to love. I really don't mean to be but have not learned how to restrain myself. It's always been hard for me to connect with people and even harder to stay connected. I lose myself in my own world or judge people too harshly. Maybe I make myself unlovable to keep people away. No matter. The end result is that I would love to pour my heart out into a blog but maybe a journal would be the smarter way to go.